God's ways are so crazy sometimes.  and it's even crazier knowing that those ways are perfect.  i think about the phrase "God sees the big picture" a lot.  that kinda makes me think that i have to wait for this picture, like it hasn't happened yet or i'm not there yet.  but really, every day, every moment, every encounter is a picture in and of itself.  He has a plan for every day, not just one big plan for our future that we have to wait till our future gets here (whatever that means) to find out what it is.  maybe our lives are like a huge photo album, full of tons and tons of pictures of our every day lives.  maybe so.  maybe not.  but right now i'm thinking maybe so. 

this is the verse i'm clinging to~

"It is the LORD Who goes before you.  He will be with you; He will not leave you or forsake you.  Do not fear or be dismayed."     Deuteronomy 31.8

so i haven't updated for many a moon now.  but i kinda miss it.  i have to admit the facebook craze took over for a while, but now i am back.  and i am asking for prayer from anyone who still might read this.  God's been slowly breaking me down, all of my pride and thoughts about how my life should be. and through so many different situations, my heart is now broken.  but i know, i know, i know that my God is faithful.  that is one thing i have never doubted.  no matter who may leave you or reject you or forget you, there is One Man who never will.  and i just long to feel His love for me like i never have before. 

Jesus, my Savior and my God...i need Your love.  Heal my broken heart. 

so i joined a physics club today

but not only did i join, i became the secretary 

yes, i am officially now a nerd  

one of the most profound things i heard this weekend at FOCUS~

"may our lives be where our songs are"    -Watermark

just think about that the next time you sing worship songs to our Almighty Father God

it's definitely made me re-examine some of the bold words we find ourselves singing without really comprehending what it is we're promising to do or be   

that's all for now, goodnight my friends

Tim says hi.

that would be my friend Tim Hammond, he also has a xanga of his own but apparently wants to write on mine cuz it is way cooler     ;)  

so i'm back home at UMHB and i am so happy!  welcome week has been uber awesome, and the PENGUINS are the coolest family group in the world!!  we definitely have penguin pride and are gonna go see the movie march of the penguins together!!!  you know you wanna see it too     

ok real cool story~ last night was kinda rough for me, i've just been so tired lately and kinda stressed with stuff, especially not having a place to call my own right, and kinda feeling sick and people were being inconsiderate and lots of things piled up     anyways, i took a few min to just sit and be still by myself and let the Lord minister to me and speak peace into my heart    and then as i was driving back to the Hope house (where i'm staying until i move into the hotel until our apts are finished being built in october) and this momma raccoon with two babies started walking across the road in front of me    now, for those of who you know me well enough, you will know that raccoons are my favorite animal (even if they were annoying on my CLT trip)   so i put my truck in park and got out and started to go after them without really thinking    and they didn't really run away but sorta walked back into the woods and i just watched them go   they were so stinkin' cute!!!   and as i got back into my truck, i knew that that was God telling me that He loved me and wanted to make me smile     cuz that definitely made my heart so happy!!!  so anyways, i just love how God bring those little surprise reminders of His great love for me    so you look for them too!!!   they are ALL over the place, if you'll only open your eyes and look               blessings until next time, my friends!